No ones ever loved me the way you loved me
But who is to say not one ever will?
We get fixated on the past
Still trying to chase that high
It’s like we’re yearning to recreate those memories
But they’re memories for a reason right?
I suggest it’s time
It’s time to move on
I wonder sometimes if you still think about me
It’s like i’m not yet sold on your current reality
But what do you have to prove to me?
Still trying to understand these feelings of mine
And why I still care so much
It’s like I’d put the distance of the world between us
And still all it takes is a picture to bring my thoughts back to you
I wonder what I’ll say
When and if we ever do speak again
Will we pick up like nothing ever happened
Or will we inquire about our lives and what happened over the past few years
I think about that conversaion in your parents car
Outside of the gallery when we reflected on life
And how far we’d traveled
And how much we’ve grown
Or that conversation where you confirmed your relationship status
But couldn’t stop apolologizing for some reason
And making excuses for the change
Sorry for what?, I wondered
Kinda moving on?
You said you wanted to ask me to be your girlfriend that day in the car
For us to pick up where we left off
To write our next chapter
I wonder what stopped you from asking?
Was it fear?
Or was the connection so intenselike its always been that you hid within yourself for cover
Well whatever it was
I wonder if it’s still there
I wonder if what I feel for you anymore is even real
Or if i’m suffering from the complications associated with loneliness
Like what if we meet again and we each have our significant others on our arms?
Will out heart reach out for one another?
Or will they stand still in the silence like total strangers?